And this is my beautiful life
The only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Requests...

Hmm, this is so frustrating. Isay(a friend of mine in KHQ) requested me to nake her a Kazuma Azuma siggy. At first I thought it would really be so darn easy that I can do it in 15-30 mins. Actually, I make sigs for almost an hour so yun. But I was dead wrong! It's so hard, especially if it's not yours. What I'm trying to say is, what if this signature doesn't satisfy her? Or something like that, but that's how I feel. I'm not saying that I don't wanna make a sig for her, it's just that, what would she feel about my work? Every night I can't sleep coz' of this job. Oh dear...

I'm the kind of person that gets depressed whenever nobody likes my work. Just like in KHQ, i get kinda depressed when nobody responds to my topic. I really am like that. Sorry about my attitude but that's the way it is. And I kinda feel I wanna give up to this work. But as what they say, "Never give up!". As I wrote this sentence, an anime line came into my mind by Manager Ken of Yakitate! Japan(i'm just paraphrasing), "Kasi ang iniispi niya yung reaction ng mga tao kaysa tinapay niya ang bigyan ng pansin!" Err, as in I'm only pressuring myself...yes, i'm just pressure.

I know! Never give up, but this is so hard! I've been thinking negative about this, which I should not be doing. Instead, I should think of it as a challenge. A challenge on how am I gonna make my sig, without depending on the online tutorials. Okey, maybe they will be my refrence but still! Hahaha, I should thank Isay because she gave me this 'challenge'. But I'm still afraid and not willing. I should be brave and be determined!

Err, so I blurted out how i feel...that's all